what does that even mean (?)
you say you love me but what does that (even) mean ? does it mean you cant live without me ? does it mean you wont live without me ? or (may be) (simply) that you’d prefer not to live without me ? is love (merely) preference (in the end) (or) (may be) some thing (at least) a little more dramatic than that ? ******* what does it mean when you say you love me does it mean you love me most of (all) the peepholes on earth ? that you want to spend your life with me for ever until you die ? that we should marry our days our time our lives (our hearts) together as best we can in this life and (even) the next (if we can swing it) if we can fuse our (close) karmic connextions so inextricably that we will (always) be born connected (some how) ******* will you (perhaps) be my mother of the next life or will i (may be) be yours ? will we fall in love (again) in kindergarten (or) when our eyes (first) meet at university will we both somehow know we’ve (always) been connected and marry, then divorce then grieve our inabilities to hold love in our hearts even for those we most love in this life ******* you say you love me but what does that (even) mean does it mean you love me from where (ever) you are no matter where i am (in this world) ? no matter what i do in this world ? or does it mean some thing else entirely (to you) perhaps some thing a little more conditional ? tell me, i want to know so i can mirror what you want me to be because im afraid i dont know how to love because im afraid i dont know what it means when i say i love you ******** you say that you love me but what does that (even) mean she asked while i lay there unsure what to say
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Haunting at the end. Sprawling and contemplative and ponderous. Life’s biggest question explored so poignantly. But real. Oh so very real! Well done, Seamus!👏🏼
Seamus, that was a really interesting poetic investigation into the real meaning behind the words, "I love you."