some things to work on

what is it that we (i) should purify

(if purification is (even) possible)  ?

the habit of being

who i think i am  ?

(who im used to being)

the (long established) habit

of wishing for some other (better) life  ?

the wish for love  (?)

for someone to love

and to be loved  ?

should i purify that  ?

i mean, is that (only) selfishness  ?

(i wonder) (i (really) do)

and if the wish for love

is (just) (merely) a form of

selfishness in disguise

should i (not) then

(just) purify selfishness  ?

and let the shit fall

where it lies  ?

peepholes like me (like us)  (?)

hafta wonder    not only

what is possible but

what is possible for us (now)

(a form of what is probable)

dont we  ?

is the question     am i happy  ?

(are we happy)

(or) is the question some thing else  ?

(do we (not) hafta figure it out  ?)

(what the questions are  ?)

im asking...


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they say your reach 

should exceed yore grasp

(but) what tha fuck  ?!

havnt we (i) been burned enough  ? (!)

only to keep grasping

at what we cannot reach


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im a little worn out

with my self

with all this want(ing)

with all these heart wishes

with all this praying for love

with (all) this 

looking at every face

for a glimpse of

what is possible

for an intimation of

what is probable

for any sign

that i can

stop looking (for)

what hasnt been



for what hasnt

(yet) been...



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(just) tell me, please

when i can stop looking

(just) tell me, pleas(e)

when i can (just) stop



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help me stop