losing weight

(a consideration)

if you lose     eight percent

of yer body weight

are you any less a person  ?

if you gain it all back

are you (some how) 

more than you (just) were  ?

do you (ever) wonder

(just) how much more

you can lose

and (still) be you  ?

if you lossed 

yore (left) breast

and i lossed 

my (right) ball

and we (both) 

lossed our hair

and our love

for each other

and all that was 

left was this

benign malignancy

would we (still) be

forced ta call it love

(just) because we

dont have the heart

to call it what it is


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(to speak plainly of

whats left of us)



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and i’ll admit

(most) peepholes

cant (even) tell

what the disease

has (already) taken

(like (most) always) they (just)

see what they wanta see

(or) what they think they see

neither of which is

(even) half true

but we caint blame them

(can we  ?)  whain we know

(oh (!) so (vairy) well) 

(just) how it is    

to be so (frickin) 

wrong all the time

about every thing (yet)

(still) think we know

(most times)

whats true

or good or best

for (pretty much)

every one



(and we’d tell you

(so) ardent-heartedly

if (only) you were listening

though we know (oh so vairy

whell)   (just) how little

thaire is (actually) 

left (of you)


for listening)


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id like ta say

this isnt how i think

about (most) every thing

ive (ever) thought

but it seems (like)

thaires (almost) nothing

i can do to stop (these)

thoughts from coming

except to disavow

every thing ive 

(ever) been

or said

or thought

or done

(as) not me


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i believe you can 

(actually) feel (yore)

suppleness of mind

losing its pliancy

the way you 

lose words

for things you

usta know


constricting(s) of

the minds throat


smaller passages

for things to

get through



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they talk about plaques

built up in your (h)arteries

they mention amyloid accretions

and synapses mis firing (or)

not firing (at all)

they talk about

broken connections

interferences in

normal operation(s)

they talk about 

accomadations (and)

remediations

ways to trick

dysfunction(s)

inta seeming less

dysfunctional

while you wonder (if)

every thing yuve

(ever) done will

(some how) help you

get through

whats left of this


will all those 

practices (with spaces)

ameliorate    times

worse(r) inclination(s)


you wonder can you

trick these (empty) spaces

into saying what 

you wanted to say

in your (ever so)

confused muteness



you wonder do these

incapacities (somehow)

steal the weight

of yer wirds

(for others)


knowing (as you do)

only the lightest

things can fly

in what passes for aire

in these skies


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can you feel

my weight

lessening

i like ta tell myself i dont need nothing...yet i keep posting this link for you ta give me something (its (almost) like it dont make sense)